I’m at a loss, again. Lost in life, no words come nor the energy to pull them forth. I feel depressed! Whether, or not, it’s the Weather I think it’s the weather. I hope it’s the weather anyway. SADS is still with me perhaps and it may be time to pull out ‘the light’. The …
Bad mood Thursday, I’m feeling particularly crusty today. Depression or SADs? I felt ok earlier, just tired, and cold. I think I’m coming down with something. I hope it’s not the dreaded ‘man flu’ that was rampant in the news the other day. Likely what put me over the edge was what generally does, the …
I’m dropping the meds, well not dropping my medication totally just dropping the dosage. When I was first diagnosed with depression the doctor put me on 30mg of Mirtazapine, an antidepressant with the added benefit of being a sleep aide. In addition to my feeling emotionally crappy I had also been having trouble sleeping consistently. …
In my previous post I was giving a bit of an update on how I see things have gone for me lately, how I’m feeling better and generally less angry and frustrated. I think I’m coming out of this tunnel called Depression. I believe I can see a light at the end of the tunnel, …
I’ve been feeling pretty good lately, not at all angry and as unhappy as I was before. My depression, if that what it is, seems to have diminished or become depressed itself. I was never 100% sure it was depression but as I understand there is a broad spectrum of symptoms and I had a …
I’m happy, I’m sad, I’m both, I’m neither. I’m disappointed my career is almost over, but I’m stoked that retirement is imminent. The appreciation was missing, the acknowledgement of dedicated service for so many years. I’m now invisible, a cog on the wheel, a link in the chain that’s seen but not “seen”. Utilized but …
I’m going to try something new this morning, in fact at least a couple things. The first thing I’ve tried and just completed was writing my “Morning Pages” within 30 minutes of my getting up. Now for those of you who don’t know, morning pages are essentially a handwritten journal prepared every morning and topics …
It has been a hard couple of weeks, probably more like 6 or so when I think about it. I’ve been sliding back into that dark place, that psychological arena I was in closer to the beginning of the year, the place where there is little optimism, where dark moods prevail and it seems like life itself is …
Mo and I had lunch with my Mom yesterday, Sunday being the day we typically try to get together with her, and both Larry and her before that. She does live in the basement, one of the original “children under the stairs”, but she has her space and we have ours so it’s not always …
Today was a good day to recharge. I thought perhaps it would be harder, more sad or depressing, and it was a tad sad but I perservered. I so wanted to go camping one final time this weekend, but instead we stayed home where Mo baked and I plucked and shucked out in the yard. …