I believe my depression was more a reactive depression, or situational depression, than the psychological depression I first thought it was. Those circumstances are now behind me (at least for now) so I want to look ahead, not back.
I’m in a quandary, but then you that know me will say “so what else is new?” I believe a re-calibration is required, ‘How’ is the question, the ‘why’ not so much. I won’t belabor the point so I’ll cut to the chase. I’ve been thinking quite a bit about this blog lately, in fact I talked about …
I think I’m emotionally in a dark place lately, but at times it seems well lit, make sense? It’s just that I feel emotionally alone, and that’s ok, that seems to be the dark place, and while I may not prefer it I do accept it in some fashion. It’s the fact that I seem to understand and …
I’m dropping the meds, well not dropping my medication totally just dropping the dosage. When I was first diagnosed with depression the doctor put me on 30mg of Mirtazapine, an antidepressant with the added benefit of being a sleep aide. In addition to my feeling emotionally crappy I had also been having trouble sleeping consistently. …
In my previous post I was giving a bit of an update on how I see things have gone for me lately, how I’m feeling better and generally less angry and frustrated. I think I’m coming out of this tunnel called Depression. I believe I can see a light at the end of the tunnel, …
I’ve been feeling pretty good lately, not at all angry and as unhappy as I was before. My depression, if that what it is, seems to have diminished or become depressed itself. I was never 100% sure it was depression but as I understand there is a broad spectrum of symptoms and I had a …
I’ve been posting for about a year now and I wonder…Is it time to come out of the closet, to be an open book? Before you jump to conclusions I should elaborate. This morning before writing in my journal, after checking emails and having breakfast etc., etc., I watched one of the Ted Talks called …
I just “re” learned a word, “ennui”, meaning (from the Free Dictionary) “a listlessness and dissatisfaction, resulting from lack of interest; boredom”. That pretty much sums up my state of affairs, I’m ennuied. Nothing much has changed here since my last post (yesterday), there has been no discussion nor questions by my Manager as to …
Well it’s the Queen’s birthday today, and not not the Queen of England or some such country, but the Queen of my house, Mo. She acquired that name from our friend Andrew, he annointed her with it during one of our house renovations where he came to do the job and I helped. I’m not …
The last number of days have been pulling me down. Many issues with my father’s care are demanding time and energy, energy I want to expend toward my own mental health. I chose the word “want” because that’s the choice I feel is warranted. I “want” to be there for my Dad too, but it’s …