It’s my son’s birthday today, but I can’t wish him happy birthday because he passed away suddenly 12 years ago, on Jan. 18, of a rare heart condition called Arrhythmogenic Right Ventricular Dysplasia (AVRD). If he was with us today he would be turning 30 years old. I miss him, sometimes painfully, and I think …
In my previous post I was giving a bit of an update on how I see things have gone for me lately, how I’m feeling better and generally less angry and frustrated. I think I’m coming out of this tunnel called Depression. I believe I can see a light at the end of the tunnel, …
So today (technically Mar.10) I’m officially a grandfather. Whether I’ll be Grandpa, Gramps, or I’m thinking Poppa, I am still very happy and can’t wait to meet the new addition. His name is Madden, 9 pounds 5 ounces, and he is cute as a button. Officially it happened last night around 8 pm and while …
“Am I afraid to die?” my wife asks me over lunch the other day. Not your typical table-side conversation topic, but timely nonetheless. And the question didn’t come out of the blue, but rather as an extension of an ongoing conversation on my mental state and well being. I have been mentioning to her that I’ve been …
We never really grieved with our daughters, it’s only been recently that I have understood that. When our son died in 2000 my wife and I were so wrapped up in ourselves and our grief that I’m afraid we neglected the rest of our immediate family, our two daughters. Oh sure, we spent our time with them, …
The snow is falling, or what could be loosely described as snow. Maybe dust, white powder dust would be more appropriate, almost like large flakes of flour. The kind of dust that you barely glimpse, but can see when the sunshine catches them as it’s rays filters through the window. This same white powder fell …
I feel better today, mind you it’s only just short of 10 am and I haven’t had any beer yet LOL. I probably should be cautious about joking about alcohol consumption, I could give the wrong idea. The wrong idea would be that I drink too much, and I know that is a relative thing. …
I’ve talked at some length to Dad’s hospital social worker about his condition and prognosis. I won’t go into detail here, both because it’s not required and because it’s expensive doing it on my phone while using roaming. Suffice to say he’s doing ok medically but the congestive heart failure has not been stabilized, yet. …