I often think of this site, rather the ability to dump my thoughts in some fashion. Talking ‘to’ someone isn’t really viable it seems so I’ll ‘talk’ to you. Many busy days or so it seems. I often feel overwhelmed, unable to get the things done that I’d like to and unable to say No …
Once again I’m forced into recognizing my foibles, and likely foible is to tame a word. It refers to the emotional baggage I carry and feel unable to divest myself of. The baggage, the stress, of group gatherings. The Why I’m commenting on my disinclination to want or need personal get-togethers, family gatherings in particular. …
In my last post “Well Lit, Dark Place” I talked about being in a dark place, about being emotionally alone or socially disconnected. Perhaps my comments and the title were a bit misleading as the intent of the comment was much more figurative than actual. I’m not really in such as dark place as was interpreted, …
I’m soon to be on the road again. I feel like a traveling salesman, and to think at one point I aspired to a role like that. Now, maybe not so much. I have been approached recently too, to see if I’d be interested in taking on a sales position since I’ve retired. It would …
I’ve been feeling pretty good lately, not at all angry and as unhappy as I was before. My depression, if that what it is, seems to have diminished or become depressed itself. I was never 100% sure it was depression but as I understand there is a broad spectrum of symptoms and I had a …
I’m sitting here, along with my wife, in front of the tv and wanting something different. Why can’t I pull myself away? I’m obviously not watching, but I am still hearing the dialogue and still taking in some of the goings on, enough that I know my focus is not on what I am doing. …
I’m looking forward to the weekend, and it’s only hours away now. We are camping about 20 min. away and I’ve been commuting to/from work. It’s not as bad as I thought, the drive is quite relaxing and doesn’t take long. I should be using the time to think deep thoughts but not much of that …
So if honesty is important to my posts I’d have to say I’m often bored in conversations with others. It just seems like so much of what we say to each other is mundane, I don’t have the knack for small talk, don’t necessarily want to either. I think it comes back around to the …
It appears that keeping up the posts is a bigger challenge than I’ve anticipated, maintaining a schedule should not be too hard even though I can’t seem to achieve it. I’m just waiting now for my appt with Gloria, don’t really know what we’ll chat about and I hope it will be fruitful. One of …