I skipped out today, I just couldn’t bring myself to go in to work. I wasn’t feeling especially chipper but the biggest motivation was the need for a “mental” day, an opportunity to regroup. I have to tell you the guilt is going to take some to deal with but I’m sure I’m up to the task.
My morning has flown by and in the process of thinking what my needs are for the afternoon I saw one of my miniature roses sitting there just taking in the sun. That was my thought too, perhaps go for a walk while the sun is shining and the glimmer of spring is in the air.
The head of the rose (I think you call it a head but not really sure) was reaching, turned toward the stream of light penetrating the house. It appeared to be balancing on the end of it’s stem, partially supported by it’s neighbor and relishing in it’s fortune.
To get the best shot of it’s glory I moved it briefly outside where it could be fully appreciated in the full light of day. I’m sure it would love to stay there but the chill of the still-winter air would be too much, a move back to the protection of shelter would be required.
It made me think of my own circumstance, here I am also looking to the sun for energy, thinking of my future and what it may bring. I am also reaching out, wandering what my life will be like a year from now, two, or even 10. So many questions, so few answers.
What I believe is that my next step, retirement, will be an opportunity for growth. It will be a learning experience, and like the rose on it’s delicate stem I will reach for the sun, to bask in it’s warmth and be supported by my family. It will be spring, I can start anew.