I had another session with Gloria tonight (my counselor) and the conversation ranged from parental parenting, as in dealing with my Dad, to latent feelings of grief and loss. We even threw a little bit of emotional support regarding crying and “triggers” when it comes to loss, and the strong emotions that can come forward unexpectedly as a result of those triggers. I’d have to say it was probably one of the more enlightening sessions I’ve had in a while.
We’ve had a number of good sessions in my opinion and that comes to a bit of a surprise to me, and to admit that remembering how I felt when I went into the process some many months ago. She will offer some insights which seem simple, basic, or fundamental at first glance but upon further analysis have many benefits and potential insights. Who’d’ve thunk?? I hope that at some point, sooner rather than later, that I can articulate to her the gifts she’s given me.
We also talked of writing, specifically the chronicling of my adventures with Dad. I told her “I’ve had lots of support for this, there are quite a few people encouraging me”. Gloria said I should do it too! “We are in the age of the baby boomers, it’s a timely topic”. I know it is, but I confided to her that I inevitably shut myself off, I don’t allow myself to complete a project like this, I really think I must be afraid of success. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t come up with this stuff myself. Reading up on Giftedness among other things like procrastination has taught me this. It’s ok she said, give yourself permission to jam out, to not complete, in that way you can complete as much as you want and come back to finish if and when you like. Hmmm, please Lord give me strength.