I feel pretty upbeat this morning, better than many mornings lately. Not that I have felt poorly just not as “up” as today. The trick now will be to determine why, if there’s an external reason or if it’s strictly a function of meds operating on my body. Gloria (my therapist) has said many times that I will have good days and some not so good and one of the benefits of journaling is that I can refer back and see progress, comparing with those days when things were not as good and I was less “up”. It seems to me that there is a subtle distinction between most good and not as good days.
Doing a little armchair psychoanalysis would lead me to believe that part of the reason is that I was active yesterday, mowing the lawns and otherwise puttering around outside. The “outside” part may be significant as well, getting more sun will elevate many peoples moods, I believe an increase in the uptake of vitamin D is one factor. I have been suffering (another word I dislike) from SAD for a number of years that I’m aware, who knows how long before that. I had been extremely lethargic during our winters, craving sweets and just generally blah feeling. I purchased a SAD light and that has helped immensely. During summer hours and/or if I get lots of sunlight my mood improves and the symptoms go away for all intents and purposes.
Another possible reason for the mood lift is my reading, perhaps even the types of books I’ve been reading. Currently I’m reading a book on Procrastination, How and Why, and How to Fix. That’s not the exact title and I’ll post it separately. Essentially I think there’s a coorelation with (and it just struck me as possible) between exercise, both body and mind, and my mood. Things that make you go Hmmm…..
I know that when I read non-fiction, self help books or motivational books etc. that I wish to post more, to get my thoughts down on paper as it were, but the posting also interferes with my train of thought and my focus on whatever book I’m reading. I’ve tried to post from my phone, which is marginally more convenient, but I’ve yet to come up with the best combination of reading and note taking. (as an aside, note taking for the purposes of blogging is a bit easier on the phone in that the autocorrect and auto punctuation can speed things up)
Anyway bottom line is keep fit, physically and mentally. And Dwayne, by the way, Don’t Procrastinate.