It’s been a while since I last posted, almost a week. Mostly we’ve just been on the road but there have been periods with no cell service as well. Poor excuses all really. G says I shouldn’t worry about not journalling every day but if this blog does become read it’s important to be consistent, or followers may drop it. I suppose that’s a minor concern and really the issue is my being consistent.
Aside – I’ve begun rereading the book “Emotional Alchemy” and it has refocussed my attention. I have slipped in a number of my interactions and some of my responses to others are becoming inappropriate in that I’m snapping and being short. I do this in reaction to comments being made by them, to or around me. I can do better. Typically my shortness is with my wife Mo, and where I find her comments lead me to react in a certain fashion she is not deserving of my shortness with her, nor any rudeness I may feel to obliged to treat her with.
The current chapter in the book is comparing the progress and setbacks one encounters as being analogous to one’s journey through drug or other chemical addictions, often making significant progress and then suffering setbacks. It states, as far as brain function goes, there is a parallel between emotional habits and addictions. It has to do with the dopamine balance in parts of the brain, and the quantity of receptors that are in use.
Update on Dad, he’s been taken back to emergency complaining of hallucinations. I feel very torn, on the one hand feeling very concerned for him and what to become of him, on the other tired of the frequent hospital visits. And that makes me feel bad, rather I feel badly of myself thinking that way. I don’t feel like the shining example of a son that I’m seen to be by some others. But hey this shouldn’t be about me, he is the one that is potentially on his last legs . But hey again this is my blog and IS supposed to be about me and my feelings of the things that are happening to and around me.