I realize ups and downs are normal, I was feeling much more “up” before I think. I want to drink, not a lot, but drink nonetheless. Is it bad for me? Well of course it’s bad, but is it really bad? Is it an outlet to disengage from what’s going on around me. I so feel like I want to be away, in some other time/space, not so much another life because for the most part my life is great. I have a very loving and caring wife, a daughter that loves me and looks up to me (or at least I think she does), most things a man could want.
I don’t know about work, there are those in attendance at that location that like and respect me, of that I’m pretty sure. There are also those that wouldn’t notice if I never came back. I suspect that work location isn’t much different than many others. I really don’t want to be there. I don’t find the work meaningful, nor do I have a great rapport with many there. Some I quite like and would love to work with more. Alas, again I’m in a funk. Booze or coffee, booze or coffee, which poison do I pick? I almost feel like I want to cry, what a baby.
Maybe I’ll try a walk, now there’s thinking out of the box…….